BOOKMARK | A Start

Three hours have passed and I have yet to do anything. Tried looking for something to work on to but I couldn’t find anything. Glancing at the window and looking for nothing or maybe for something, I’m not sure. It was a lazy Monday, indeed. Staring blankly, where am I now?

                       

Yesterday I have chanced upon an article from a newspaper that talks about passion. Upon reading that, I remembered another article that I’ve read before that talks about work. I will not go into details anymore but those articles stroke me. We must not give up on our passion and we must continue to live with that.

Well I can classify the things I love to do into two; what I want professionally and what I want passionately. I’ve been travelling for about two years now but unlike those full time travellers out there that I’ve known of, I have no plans yet of getting out of the corporate world and be a full time traveller. But those articles got me into thinking, am I really on the right track? I’ve been working now for about 4 to 5 years but it seems that I haven’t seen my calling yet. What do I really want to do as my profession? I’m not sure now if I love what I’m currently doing but one thing’s for sure, I want change . . . something new. A change in me, a change in my lifestyle, a change in my habit and a change in my environment. I may also need growth professionally but what  I really want to happen is some change. With how things are currently happening, I don’t see change coming anytime soon.

I don’t want to spend another hours doing nothing. I don’t want to wait for things to come. I have plans that until now is still a plan. What’s hindering me to do those? My travels. Because of my passion in travel I tend to forget the reality around me. I forget what I really want professionally. I am living pay check to pay check. It’s terrible since I have no other source of income but my salary. And I don’t want to keep living this kind of life. I have some few travels to sustain me until the end of the year which is good. I am not compulsive anymore when it comes to travel. Other destinations could wait, I suppose. But I think, my life couldn’t.

Two or three months from now, I’m hoping to be living a better life. A life which I can say pleases me and what I’ve dreamt about. A life filled with my passions. I want to walk the track where my life is full of my passions and dreams.

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